HerSmile

Is it the light.
Or maybe it's all the darkness i made myself keep.
i have everything i ever needed except her.
when i write, tears of fire come out my eyes.
and i burn my poems just to feel the sweet smell of all the love i wrote in it.
witnessing pain and murder is small when you feel like you seen everything
but you made everything so when you raise your eye sight to see someone
a shadow appears from anything.
where do i go without you?
i would shower you with gifts because you're a girl that deserves the world.
i wish i could actually show you the reflection in the mirror of the monster that
is really not what i said...
i write songs i compose letters from my heart to make it seem soft and the lead
that it receives is never with negative force it shows you how a forcefield protects
me and you.
i will save you from anything you feel like being saved from...i'm only flying around you.
using my strength and my image to show you a better world.
is it possible?
i will try.
i never stop trying.
Stubbornness only comes with achieving what i want at the end.
just smile because we will never reach the end.
because the end is us.
and we will never the end because we runaway from the pain.
for that, i will truly grab your hand and appreciate your smile.
now for the end...no future is planned.
just the future that ran.