okay, i feel everything now.

i fucked up.

pretty bad this time.

yet, i don't feel anything.

*looks down*

i'm a monster.

i wanted to change.

i'm not saying i'm going to the bad ways, i'm changing for the good.

for the good, i mean not me, but personally other people that i love.

i want them to see my potential.

i see her.

i remember when i used to say to myself "it's okay to feel."

but now i feel everything. 

i feel everyone.

but instantly, i don't know what to do anymore.

*looks in the mirror*

"you are my enemy."