flame vents.

Why has no ever supported me like I want. Never had anyone listen to my ENTIRE playlist and be like you know "you suck at this." or "you're good, keep going" it's difficult.
I never know what i'm doing anymore, it's so confusing. I tried to be like you know where you state yourself and you announce yourself to never stop doing what you love but it keeps coming back to the point where you doubt yourself.

I had things shoved in my face for so long, I always have to look like a fucking idiot.
You learn mistakes you or other people made the hard way and I noticed.
It's things you want to avoid forever.
Like growing up, high buildings, snakes and... taxes... (lol)

But as I feel at the moment I feel determined to not even live past 40 because it's fucking stupid.
I'm already fed up with life as it is why would I torture myself like that.

Whatever.