Is it mutual?

That I don't feel like myself who am I even now anymore?
Sometimes I feel like sometimes,  my friend was right...
Ilet everyone and I mean EVERYONE run over me, why does the pain twist up with feeling that I don't wanna feel, why should I try?
I truly love her...but now that everything is okay, my eyes are stil set on her, while her eyes are set on him.

I'm leaning with great style and my music is greater than the normal,
Am I truly happy?

Or depression has finally taken my body for it's control and decides me being victor and dr.zalost is my real me. Why would I even make them up or at least think I like them if anything I say is real? What should I do...